I starting to find it harder and harder to keep up with a particular hobby I started about 1.5 years ago.  I started this mostly in response to turning 28 and feeling like 30 is just around the corner but lately, it's become more of an outlet for the stress of daily work.  What I do for a living isn't all that exciting.  In fact, it's quite demeaning most of the time, especially when you've got people that suck up like crazy to people of position while they walk all over anyone else in their way.  This isn't very different than a lot of other jobs, but I actually left another career, one that I was quite good at and paid more, just so I can leave all that behind.  When I did my career change and subsequently went back to school for my second degree, no one told me that this industry would be like the way it is now.

Fast forward 4 years and here I am, commuting 3 hours a day to a job where I won't see a promotion for 8+ years and am in constant worry of being deemed unnecessary.  That's the backstory anyway to why I started this particular hobby I'm talking about.  But when did I start to lose all motivation to partake in this task that should be relaxing and fun?  I'm not sure what to do with this hobby as it is.  I really do enjoy it but I'm finding less and less time to devote to it.  I've already made some cuts to the dream that I had originally thought up for it and even then it's starting to show wear at the seams.

I guess the definition of a hobby is not whether someone else enjoys what you do, but if you enjoy what you do.  You're not supposed to care if someone likes the same books, or thinks the painting you did over the weekend was good.  It's whether you had a good time painting it that counts.  Still, you would like to have a pat on the back once in a while, which is also why I'm feeling slightly discouraged.  Maybe a break will give me a fresh perspective on the whole thing.